waiting for the night

itwillfallapart @ 2005-03-12T04:27:00

2005-03-12T12:21:52Z

because i know what it feels like
to stand to the side and watch people lose control.

itwillfallapart @ 2003-08-02T03:55:00

2003-08-02T10:53:28Z

ok. yeah so there is a lot of dumb bullshit drama. cool?
it seems to be a trend to threaten suicide for attention. please stop this trend. you do NOT need that kind of attention. please stop, you're only hurting the people that care about you, it's the most selfish thing I have ever seen in my life. you hate your life? fine, that's ok. you want to talk about it? that's fine. post it in your journal? that's fine as well, but seriously just beaware of the people that you're hurting. like, what the fuck do I say? what the fuck CAN I say.

another note:
joey. miss you.

itwillfallapart @ 2003-07-31T00:08:00

2003-07-31T07:05:38Z

I don't know what it is. I've been so short with people lately. I don't know why I've been so quick to be upset and snap at people. but seriously though, I just need a fucking breal sometime. It's getting to the point where I can't control my temper anymore. ok there, that's me venting. i've been looking forward to this weekend for so long. I'm excited. I think it's just what I need. but not as excited as tour. fuck yeah.

okeee!

2003-07-26T07:48:12Z

if you haven't given me your phone number in the last few days. please give it to me now. I lost all my numbers. adje!!! I need that shiz. everyone else too. thanks!!!

it's true.

2003-07-18T08:12:20Z

day by day. arizona is stealing pieces of my heart and I'm letting them go.

itwillfallapart @ 2003-07-16T23:47:00

2003-07-17T06:42:48Z

every night. I fall asleep with you and I wake up alone.

regis.

2003-07-16T08:51:38Z

when I wake up... she's the first thing on my mind
and the last thing when I lay my head at night

when words mean nothing and conversations come up empty. they'll come and go and life just keeps on rolling. I just learned a whole lot that makes me think I should beleieve, mainly in myself, but not in you and me.

itwillfallapart @ 2003-07-13T05:19:00

2003-07-13T12:15:56Z

"If I ever stopped thinking about you, I'd prolly choke over words I'll never say"

itwillfallapart @ 2003-07-12T00:16:00

2003-07-12T07:12:31Z

I guess, I'll never know, just how good it could be.

itwillfallapart @ 2003-07-11T01:43:00

2003-07-11T08:41:44Z

"thanks for coming"
"well, it was either this or hang out with the OTHER really awesome girl that I like a lot."

some would say that I have a way with words. others would say that I fuck up everything.

itwillfallapart @ 2003-07-10T03:12:00

2003-07-10T10:08:44Z

the news hit me like a ton, i didn't know what I was waiting for. that day came like a rolling thunder and we were waiting for the sun. "hey man, I haven't seen you for awhile" get the fuck out of the circumstance. can't fight this kind of feeling that we're dealing with. i feel helpless and useless. it's clear now. this days decided. i feel like I'm defeated. it's clear now this hearts devided. shivers shake the ground that we stand on. cold feet dance in nervousness. speechless with my hands in my pockets. skin cracks as we march in. sit down and let the feeling take control. creepy. can't hide it with a smile. i'm pretty sure I don't beleive in god, but i can pretend for a little while.

itwillfallapart @ 2003-07-08T23:58:00

2003-07-09T06:59:58Z

fuck it. I fuck everything up. breathe. i know you can do this. breathe. alright, I can do this.

"I still taste our last kiss, her name still falls from my lips"

the 4th.

2003-07-05T22:18:24Z

just chilled out for the most part. britton didn't want me to go to his pool party, meh whatever. today will rock. none more black is amazing. I rule, i must now get dressed for I am only wearing a towel. and bryce is picking me up soonicals. so yes.

4th of july rules

2003-07-05T19:55:25Z

these damn clowns, they're so damn funny/